this semester is going better so far than the last one. i'm seeing people i know more often, even if it's not outside of school or off campus, and i have at least one more person i can call a good friend. my classes don't totally suck, even though it's generally difficult to pay attention in any of them. dance troupe is great so far. i already have bruises, but that's ok.

i still don't like being by myself at home but that could change soon.

love.

I ♥ Halloween!!!

So... about this school thing. I'm finding that it's just as monotonous as high school. I guess it doesn't help that I have a class at the same time Monday through Friday and I have nothing to do in the two hours I have between each of my classes. That's a whole 4 hours of down time homies (minus Wednesday of course, then my time varies slightly because of my Chem. lab). So if anyone is free around campus from like 10-12 or 1-3 basically ever give me a ring or something, could be fun...

Also!! Halloween is here!! I'm so excited because I am completely in love with this holiday. Who really cares if my religion doesn't exactly support it, because what other holiday allows me to fully express my artistic side through the medium of pumpkin?! Honestly, pumpkin carving to me is just as good as a sweet ass costume or going to a totally chill party with everyone. This year my two pumpkins are going to be Iron Man's mask and the Death Star from Star Wars. Talk about fricken sweet right? If you happen to meander by my house this year for Halloween, you will probably be able to tell how full of nerds my house is. My pumpkins for example, combined with Tarra's Dwight Schrute pumpkin, Brian's Mario and Pacman pumpkins, and Joe's alien pumpkin (Mitchell's is just a weird cat so he's kinda normal for once) are bound to signal to the world all of our nerdery... but whatevs. Being a geek isn't as bad as it used to be. :)

P.S. Taking shots of rum...

Hmm...

So, for the next two weeks I get to experience having a house to myself. I'm dog sitting and I'm really excited because my aunt has a hot tub that I can use whenever I feel like.

Also.

I'm really kind of sick of not having anything to do and having to be the one to call friends when I feel like hanging out. Does no one ever feel like just hanging or does everyone just not want to be associated with me? I don't know but if I don't get friend/party time soon I think I may go crazy...

This Shit is Bananas

Why do I feel like I've already failed at life for getting a B on my first Chemistry quiz?

I know I shouldn't because it's kind of one of those get the feel of it kind of things, but, I am an overachiever and B's are like F-----'s to me. :( Oh well. Hopefully I'll get an A on the exam! It is kind of sad though when you feel like you are doing better in calculus than chemistry. It's scary.

On a better note, I actually talked to people in my classes today! Yay me!

I have to remember it's saving them money

So, it was until recently that I was all for staying at home freshman year. I thought that it would be a real hassle to be away from my family all of the time because we do so much together and I knew living at home would save my parents money that I always feel guilty about when I make them spend it.

Now I'm completely regretting my decision. Because I'm staying at home, I feel like I'm missing out on making a lot of new friends and being able to experience living on my own (in a sense) and just the feeling of really being a college student.

At home, I feel like I'm bored all of the time and I know I can't call half of my friends because they are all like an hour away, and another good portion are either working or living it up on campus. Most of the time I feel pretty worthless because I haven't even been able to get a job to at least help my parents pay for my tuition while my sister is paying for all of her's out of her own pocket.

I just want to feel like I'm ready when I have to sever my ties to home.

Alright...

So I guess I finally have this thing figured out... well, at least a little bit.

Anyhow, in the college scene, I have decided that calculus was a bad choice, to steal the words out of the mouth of the great Ron Burgundy. I read over the section for my first homework assignment and literally didn't understand a single concept it was throwing at me. WTF MTH 201!! I guess I expected it to be difficult but not to a point where I wouldn't be able to get anything. Oh well. I guess that's what tutors are for right? In a few words, Calc is kicking my ass, and the rest of my classes are going really well.

Peace Out