This Shit is Bananas

Why do I feel like I've already failed at life for getting a B on my first Chemistry quiz?

I know I shouldn't because it's kind of one of those get the feel of it kind of things, but, I am an overachiever and B's are like F-----'s to me. :( Oh well. Hopefully I'll get an A on the exam! It is kind of sad though when you feel like you are doing better in calculus than chemistry. It's scary.

On a better note, I actually talked to people in my classes today! Yay me!

I have to remember it's saving them money

So, it was until recently that I was all for staying at home freshman year. I thought that it would be a real hassle to be away from my family all of the time because we do so much together and I knew living at home would save my parents money that I always feel guilty about when I make them spend it.

Now I'm completely regretting my decision. Because I'm staying at home, I feel like I'm missing out on making a lot of new friends and being able to experience living on my own (in a sense) and just the feeling of really being a college student.

At home, I feel like I'm bored all of the time and I know I can't call half of my friends because they are all like an hour away, and another good portion are either working or living it up on campus. Most of the time I feel pretty worthless because I haven't even been able to get a job to at least help my parents pay for my tuition while my sister is paying for all of her's out of her own pocket.

I just want to feel like I'm ready when I have to sever my ties to home.